I've been thinking of starting a blog for quite some time. I don't think I have all of the answers, and I suppose my thoughts, though not the most exciting, still merit some space out there in the world-wide web.
This was supposed to be my first post, but for whatever reason, I never posted it. Oh well. Here's to a new beginning.
I'm a constant work in progress. I don't know any other way to be. With all that said, I hope you'll join me on this path to who knows where, and don't get lost along the way.
As hard as I try, I can't shake the feelings of fear, anger, sadness, and confusion I have as Friday, May 13th looms nearer and nearer.
What's that? What happens on May 13th? Oh, it's just the end of an era, if you will. My favorite television program, Smallville concludes... and Clark Kent will become Superman. After ten seasons, you'd think I'd be saying, "Great! It's about time." Well, yes, I am happy that he is making that leap, it has been a long time coming, and I know and feel in my heart that it is time for all of this to happen. That doesn't mean I won't miss it. Watching this show is the highlight of my week. One of the single greatest joys I've ever received watching television came from watching this show. I have asked myself many times why that is... I haven't got a clue. Well, maybe I do... but it's sometimes hard to put into words.
I started watching this show (routinely) at the beginning of season 3....
One day, I was channel surfing. It was around 11pm and I was on vacation... so why not. I wasn't really finding anything until I landed on channel 8. A show was on and it caught my attention. I didn't know what it was, but I couldn't stop watching. What I did surmise, however, was that it was some kind of Superman story, before he becomes Superman. I may not know comics very well, but I knew who Clark Kent was!
So, anyway, I don't know what I'm watching, but with a little investigative effort, I backtrack on my TV guide to the day and time I was watching TV. Bingo. It say I was watching Smallville, and the TV guide tells me when the show is playing next... so I tune it. Yup. Same show. Definitely Smallville. It turns out I really enjoy what I'm seeing... so I go online and research the show. Basically, I just saw bits and pieces of the season 2 finale, and had to wait anxiously for season 3 to start.
Oh, I waited alright, and come September, I tuned in for the season 3 premiere and I had a great time. I haven't missed an episode since. Sometimes, I have to work so my VCR (and my Brother who presses record) are my salvation, but I haven't missed an episode.
What struck me so immediately, was that when I was in high school when Clark was (on the show, of course), and while he's a guy, an alien, and super powered, he always had a longing to fit in and be normal. I could totally relate with that. I think we all have points in our lives when we just don't know who we are or how we fit into the world... it was refreshing to see someone who on a much grander scale dealt with those issues... and even more so, knowing that he had powers and could do anything with them - good or bad - and he still chose to do good. It was inspiring, at the time... and it still is, even now.
In two months, the show I've been following for eight years is going to end, and I just don't know how to process my feelings. The best thing for me, today, was to just write about it all. I hope to some day write for other people to enjoy... but right now, I had to write this for me. In the coming months (there are only two left), I'm sure I'll write more.... but for now. The show is on it's spring hiatus... the last it will ever have. Barring any funky interruptions like last time, the show should be back on April 15th. I can't wait, because even if another episode airing means we're that much close to the end... it really is the beginning of something much grander, and I wouldn't miss a minute of it.
Watch a preview of what's to come:
